*sigh*
Every time I start to take a few steps forward, I get kicked a few steps back.
Seriously.
I am waiting for one entire week where SOMETHING does not go wrong or someone doesn't do SOMETHING that is cringe worthy.
In a nutshell - I received some drunken text messages late Friday night from The Ex. As I am sleeping, I don't see them or reply. In the morning, I do - as they consisted mostly of "Why won't you answer?" sort of messages..
I politely reply that I was sleeping.
Later, he replies apologizing for bothering me.
Saturday, I am woken up to several drunken messages from The Ex telling me how much he misses me and wants to see me.
I reply that I am sleeping and need to be up in a few hours for work. He replies he misses me A LOT. I reply telling him to enjoy his celebrations, I'll ttyl and I need to go to sleep..
Sunday, I am informed the Ex is making jokes about his drunken 'shame' of texting me and how he won't delete these messages as a shameful reminder to himself, and how an app should be made to make ex gf's a 'no fly zone', etc...
Seriously.
It was enough to make me break down in tears. Hard.
While I am leaps and bounds from where I was ages ago with his influence, he STILL has the power to hurt me.
He texts me TWO days in a row but turns ME into the punch line...? I loved him for 3 years with all of my heart, so to be made into a joke stings no matter how strong I may be...
I'm sorry for YET another crummy post.. Victories just aren't coming my way lately!