I don't always trust my intuition.
I often struggle with make decisions/leading by my heart rather than my head. I know I should trust my head, but the heart gets in the way..
I have come to learn, though, that when my intuition is right, it is right.
My pastor once made a statement during a service along the lines of 'nothing good happens after midnight.'... and I have come to learn that that is nothing but the truth. I am much better off coming home & going to bed/reading a book/watching television/surfing the net, etc than staying out.. especially when alcohol is involved.
As the Tale of Friday night exampled - nothing good can occur. ((And as a side note, I have not had the courage/heart to cut RG out of my life - I am just keeping a distance.. even though he is calling often and HAPPENED to show up by my home the other day))
So, I can't recall if I blogged or not about the guy I had met last year through a friend who turned out to be not so single.. I was angry, but let it go. My heart wasn't fully in it due to the drama around my ex still being fresh... I wrote it off.
Anyhow, Mr Not-so-Single (NSS) is a member of a sports team that friend's play on during the summer months - so I am forced to see him weekly. Right away, his flirtation towards me was tremendous - but my intuition told me to be cautious. I had several people comment that they thought he was REALLY into me, but I just blew the suggestion off.
Last night, after the sports team year end windup social, NSS invited a handful of people back to his house to keep the party going. I decided to bow out and head home as I also felt nothing good would come of the night... To make a long story short, one of my best girlfriends texted me this morning - her and her boyfriend had went over for a drink - that NSS and another teammate (who I don't know that well, but get a very.... 'im easy' vibe from due to her hitting on a married teammate regularly) were off in his bedroom for a chuck of the night.
First off, Thank God I have people in my life that watch out for me like that... Secondly, I was not surprised. I finally trusted my head, and it obviously made the right decision!
Strangely, this month has been a little chaotic heart wise. Despite my wanting to let go, I cannot get the Ex out of my mind. I hadn't cried in months over him, but I am finding myself back to that.. I know that that situation is hopeless, but I cannot fully give up. Where is my head on that one?
